I'm back on the blogging highway again having started numerous of these and never quite got anywhere after a couple of posts. I'm aiming this time to substitute my ever failing journal for the blog that is in front of me and so easily accessible through my beautiful imac.
I've spent the last few days in a state of anger - a few things have gone wrong. A number of friends have been hurt and a few people have been 'difficult' and I have got to this point where I feel I need to find that inner peace. It's not easy when you realise how much you are desperately trying to run away from the one who knows you best and forge your own path 'for safety's sake'. I trust that God is in control of everything but sometimes I wonder why he lets stuff happen and I get pretty mad. That's when I try and run. My friend and I use a scale of stress 1-10 simple and effective. When things start to hit a 7 that's when I try to leg it.
Lately however I've been inspired by another woman who loves God, Angie. I have been reading her blog find myself praying for her situation in abundance and it's given me the desire to stop passing things off to one side. I feel challenged to get the perspective God wants to show me for my life and how to turn to Him in all of these situations that arise - not to run screaming but to learn to walk with Him, holding his hand, side by side - and if I can let you in on a secret - it's glorious. Some days impossible but yet still glorious!
I followed a wise woman's suggestion of not letting go of this hand, to embrace and let myself be guided and to never EVER let go. God guides us through pain and anguish but also through the most joyful things in creation. It's a difficult day when you realise that there are so many imperfections in your life, but the day you realise who took them all away so they count for nothing is phenomenal. A day almost 3 years ago now shall never be forgot - it's the day I came to see the true life I belong to.
I'll tell you more another day. For now I'm here...
Lizi x
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