Yesterday was 7/7 whether you write it in the american or the english way and I realised that it is 3 years since 52 innocent people were killed by the terror attack on London.
It still seems like yesterday. I was working in the golf club and had sky TV on to pass the time as it was a VERY quiet day - all of a sudden there was an interruption saying what had happened on a news 24 bulletin and the panic of the people you know in London being safe began. I was lucky that day - there were few people who I knew that worked or were in those areas of London as the bombs went off but my prayers these past couple of days in particular have been with the other families and friends who lost someone dear to them that day for no reason.
As Christians we seek to find understanding and reasoning behind what happens and to be honest this is one of those situations that just cannot be explained in my eyes at least. At the time you question it - now I really do but not why did they do it but Lord what was the intention of all of this? I don't get it and yes your word says you have a plan for everything and you know what is going to happen before we do and why but that is still what resounds in my mind and I'm sure many others - WHY?
As the 18th young person of my generation was killed in London this week in a violent death I call out to you God and hear your cry to bring peace amongst the city of London, to stop hateful crimes amongst humanity and to learn to show the love of our God in the deepest way we possibly can. Lord I commit myself to pray for London, for the government, for the leaders of all the influential groups involved with the teenage gang cultures, for the pastors and ministers trying to find you in all of this and lead within the mourning, the anger and the grief - I'm praying Lord, I'm praying for your city.
This generation that I'm a part of seems to be so messed up, so unable to see the path written out in front of them and I'm beginning to be stirred more than ever before to really show His love and passion for their lives. I want to see this generation and the next knowing Jesus not just on a level of 'Yeah God exists' but 'I know the Lord, He is my Father, the one whom keeps me sustained in my life and is the author of it all'. I suppose reading this it's a bit like - "Ok Diz you go off on one because life must be pretty easy if you think that God can just do this and it's all ok."
I don't think it - I know it. Life's not easy - I struggle - Often.
Great things happen to me but also bad. Right now I'm praying for friends; who don't know Jesus, who are drifting, who have a sadness in their lives, who are sick, who have lost a child - friends I know deeply and friends I hardly know but friends nonetheless. So before thinking I'm all clued up and it's ok or that you have to be all clued up to know Him think again. God loves us when we shower him with praise and when we shout at Him in disgust - he loves us. He welcomes you whether you feel near or far and he WANTS to know you because he knows you already whether you believe it or not.
If you want a perspective of my God in my life right now there's a song I'm lost in right now and it's called 'You are my hiding place' by Selah. Listen to it - it's awesome! (I'm also reading a blog by Angie - Todd from Selah's wife - Inspirational if you have a chance - Bring The Rain - it's in my sidebar.
Hiding Place by Selah
You are my hiding place
You always fill my heart
With songs of deliverance
Whenever I am afraid
I will trust in You
I will trust in You
Let the weak say
I am strong
In the strength of the Lord
You are my hiding place
You always fill my heart
With songs of deliverance
Whenever I am afraid
I will trust in You
I will trust in You
Let the weak say I am strong
In the strength of the Lord
I will trust in You
When I'm far from strong there is one who makes me so - for this I will eternally be thankful and never will I be deserving of such love.
The next year of my life looks to be the most challenging as yet as I seek to find the purpose of my God on my life whilst serving and learning in the 'School of Ministry' (S.O.M) at a church in Oxford. A thriving church that means I get to be involved in the next generation, trying in His way to show the love and mercy of God to them and help them encounter Him for themselves. It's gonna be exciting and I'm starting to get a bit of what I need to raise for it by the grace of God.
Also to end I have a few thanks to pass out and they are kept in secret but meant with all my heart. The support and love I have received for this means the world to me and reminds of what a fantastic God we have!!
Have a blessed time, chat soon,
Dizi x
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